Friday, January 28, 2005
haf u ever haf this kinda feelings..
u're very troubled by something but u haf no idea wad exactly is bothering u?tat's wad i'm feeling now i guess..
i'm sorry...
i know i haven't been a good frenz a good wadeva u all wish i am..
i'm really sorry..
i juz wish i can hold myself beta..
but obviously..
i'm sorry....
i feel very bad...for losing my temper at u all, all the times nowadays, den after tat regret it..
maybe i should juz withdraw from everyone...
i duno wad's wrong with me...
i'm really really sorry...
i know i'm wrong..
sorry.....................................................
it seems like everyone are so far away...
when i need someone.....
i dunno who to turn to....
or isit me who turn my back on everyone?
i'm sorry.....i'm so confused now...
it seems like i'm getting
further n further from my dream....from my toa payoh...
i juz need my confidence back...
my self back...
anyone saw it?
to everyone: i'm sorry.....
my blood dried @ 11:38 PM
Friday, January 07, 2005
alright!i'm back after 5 days of tormenting, energy sucking, yet fun till death SAINTS orientation 2005 SAINTIERRA!!!!...hahaha!
actually the first it was like...
omg..y m i in this OG?!y so sian one...even the OGL also like sian sian blur blur 1!haha...subsequently..pple began to open up to each other...hearts are in the waking here!!haha...
day 1!!
alright i hafta admit tat it wasnt the funniest part of the orientation..we had all those administration stuffs to do...which totally juz bored me to death la.. i was actually thinking...y is my OG so sian?nobody bother to interact with anyone..n in the end i also din bother to..so i stick to my teammates...luckily my teammates are there with me.. n also.. i keep going... "alliance alliance!come girls alliance!" haha..i know i'm stupid la..but tat was the only more calourful part tat day.. oh and... another part was...on the first day i was thinking how come our OGL so sian one... hahhaa.. well... in the end he turn out to be VERY LAME! Qns.. y is no one here bu CHANCE?!Ans...becoz everyone is here by car bus or mrt!!my goodness!*slaps forehead..hahhaa...
day 2!!!
we were split into S.A.I.N.T~! n me is in ILLIPIA! well i tell u ILLIPIA rox!!at least to me la huh!hahhaa.. den the S.A.I will always be together one!haha..we're the SAI! we learned our Lindy hop n watched lee wei song music school's performance.. it was kinda fun la..had alot of family time n kingdom time...so i guess it's a way to bond everyone together kind? the best for tat day was...OG18 become closer...like we'll tok to each other kind lor..it's the earliest i go home tat day too!hahhaa... reached home at 6 plus though...
day 3!!!
now come the exciting thing le la! we learnt the tori tori song dance.. n den learnt the college song!! Up Saints, Truest fame lies in high endeavour, Play the game, keep the flame burning brightly ever!(tat was the chorus)still haf sports version one know?...well it was fun during the kingdom time..we assigned jobs.. n we got CHEERS~ OG18 is doing cheers..with OG16!~*giggles.. dun ask me y i giggle..only some pple know..haha..but tat's not the point la.. the point is..i tink ILLIPIA IS THE MOST UNITED KINGDOM!!N I SERIOUSLY TINK WE'RE THE BEST KINGDOM EVER!~heheh... well, had mass staged
games too... i went up n played this game of using the shaver to shave those cream thing from the balloons...but cannot burst the balloons... n thx everyone who cheered for me.. my OG18 n some from OG16 n some other pple..thx thx.. the best part was.. ermmm... CON- quest! we played like lotsa lotsa
games.. alot of grotesque game tat in the end make me smells like POMELO! had alot of things happened during the
gamesx... yue ying hurt her shin...vera hurt her eyes for awhile.. which make me realized tat, actually in this whole thing.. winning or losing is not the main concern.. it's eventually whether we worked together as a team n enjoy ourselves.. morale was low for awhile.. n my heart was aching for those who injured.. eventually.. things which doesnt kill us will only make us stronger.. n true enuff.. OG18 became very united after tat.. be it the guys or the girls, we'll all start to look out for each other.. n tat's the day our bond become so much stronger.. after tat.. we sat at the back of the gallery n start to tell each other something about OG18.. i din realized we were tat close n united until den.. n i haf something else to add..
OG18, thx for making my orientation such a enjoyable one..without u all.. i dun tink i will even wanna go to the orientation..all of u are the motivation for me to get out of my bed everyday..yan liang n rapheal, thx for being such a caring n great leaders, u gave me the role model of how to serve everyone.. guys, thx for showing me how gentlemen are like.. u guys are really sweet.. n the guys thank u for always helping me, supporting me.. without u all's support i tink i'll be mute by now.. the concern n care we showed each other truely touched me.. n believe me when i say i'll rmb OG18 all my life.. n i cherish u all.. love love!hahah..
DAY 4!!!
today is the finale day! n i can say it was the best.. ILLIPIA won the BEST MASCOT!!!n i tink we totally deserrve it la!hahha...thx OG14 for doing such a great job..but the other OG also did a very great job too... like OG 15 n 19 who did the identity!thx!!ours are so unique n nice.. n thx for making such a big one for me.. it's still with me n it always will be... OG20 n 17 for doing such a MARVELLOUS BANNER!! u all had define art in another way! n lastly... my beloved OG18 n Og 16!! doing the cheers was fun.. it's even beta when everyone juz participate n make the whole thing a success.. without the help of everyone.. nothing can be achieved.. the performance we had.. the things we've done.. voices we losed.. are all worth... because
WE JUZ SIMPLY LOVE TAT DAY!! the disco n "campfire" were the climax! nv danced so much for the whole of my freaking life... i bet everyone LOVE IT! hehehe...
though many things will happened... n things will changed... but no matter wad... Lord i pray for the serenity to accept the things i cannot change... the courage to change the things i can n the wisdom to know the difference.. n i pray for the whole of OG18 to stay together.. everyone truely care n love one another.. trials n turbulence we'll all go thru together.. Amen!
*~fun and enjoyment were an understatement, it's all about the frenzship i found.. :)
my blood dried @ 10:03 PM