Wednesday, August 31, 2005
2 days of blogging. woohoo!
had teacher's day celebration. trust me. its the most pathetic one i've ever seen. fun here and there but nothing compare to previous ones. the atmosphere is juz, wrong.
n i guess i feel out of place there. i dun care abt anything anymore. if that's how pple wanna treat pple den go ahead. u know wad? i dun gif a SHIT. pple were once special but if they wanna judge others juz by looking at things from the surface. they are not worth ur attention at all.
random. :) "wadeva that lift u up mite be the ultimate one to make u fall." how true.
had a dream. i dreamt of u. it was at a swimming pool (dun ask me y there i dunno either). crowded to the extent of suffocating. saw u amidst the crowds. chase after u, but u disappeared. not long after, went for lunch with a bunch of kakis, n saw u there. went over n said hi, n we actually hugged each other. smiled n sat down to talk. den someone came over n exclamed " wad is she doing here?! never expect myself to ever see u again......... but i miss u." den we hugged too. n she sat down to join us. how nice to reconcile. :) den me n u talked for really really long before we go to east coast together. talked abt everything under the sun. heart to heart i guess. n juz before i ask the impt question, u disappeared.
it had such a big impact on me, i cant get it off my head the whole day. wad does it mean? doesnt know. i will know in due time. i hope.
pple once said, i mite haf a strong front, but i haf a vulnerable character to pple that i actually care for. n normally when i care, i really care. then those pple will take me for granted. how true once again. den only when i gave up caring, they realized the impact i had in their lives n try to make me come back. sorry, feelings lost will never be the same again.
kbox is really fun. thank little girls. :) more next time k??
i fell too deep. all the talks we had. u can be totally truthful to me. n i will be towards u. haf anything to ask, juz ask. dun hide anything alright? if not, one day the doubts mite become misunderstandings. i'm stronger den u tink i am. at least i will try to be. everything are safe with me. coz u know u'll be safe ard me. i will do everything i can to protect u.
am i thinking too much or its really the way i tink it is?
everything seems to go wrong nowadays. n i mean seriously wrong. but all it takes is a smile from u n it sets everything right.
love is juz a word until u gave it a meaning.
till den.
my blood dried @ 10:16 PM